Anniversary Party

I really need to catch up with my posts.. this working full time after college is pretty much kicking me in the butt now :p but I'm slowly catching up and putting the more important things on here rather than just discussing life thoughts..

Ok so a couple weekends ago on October 18th, 2008 we celebrated my parents 25th wedding anniversary! I thought that it would be wonderful if I could get the whole family together and throw one big surprise party for them because lets face it, first I have some pretty awesome parents and two, finding couples who stay married that long are near to impossible these days because most often, people just give up on marriage and go find another partner to make them happy again.

I value marriage to the utmost and hope that my marriage with Scott will be just as ever longing as my parents and his too (they've been married a lot longer) so I know that it was very important to have a celebration and to bring the family together. My parents were quite impressed as was everyone else.. I spent my first barley hard earned pay checks on a fancy caterer which I think impressed a few of my family members but hey, this was for my parents not for everyone else. I wanted to show them how much I honor and respect their love for one another and well ok so I wanted to be a show off.. but come on I deserve to do that right? After all, there are certain people in my family who will remain anoyomous that have it out to some how get to me.. I don't know what it is.. wait actually I do.. they see that I'm becoming successful and a young women capable of doing things without the help of man and I think it freaks them out.

So the thing that I take away from throwing my first "adult" party is that no matter how much other people in your family talk about me, it doesnt matter because the people who are in your life that do nothing but respect who you are and give you love and neautring advice are the ones that mean the most to me. I'm so glad that I do have a strong support system between my parents and my moms side of the family. They were so proud of me and that's what I take out of this. When someone praises you for a job well done that is all a person needs.. there's no need to go on and embellish it, just simply say "job well done!"

My not so highly inticipated 23rd Birthday

So it's my 23rd birthday next Wednesday! As of right now, I don't have one thing planned for it. Well maybe a nice dinner out with Scott but that's pretty much it.. I know that I have to get up early, put a smile and go to work for the majority of the day. I haven't really been that anxious for my birthday this year only because turning 23 really doesn't have any significant meaning to it. It's just another year in this young 20 something world.

Truth be told, I hear that turning 23 is supposed to be one the biggest highlights of your entire life though. For some, I guess it's the best time they ever had being 23 that is. Is it because it's the first time in what 15 years that we no longer have school to worry about, unless your the highly chic and getting your masters degree? Or it could quite possibly be because most of us venture away from the oh so wonderful nest home of our parents place.

Whatever the case may be, I'm just going to toast my birthday(with a martini) with my wonderful fiance and reflect on what quite possibly could be the best year of my life.. right???

I guess I could also put together a list of things I would like to accomplish while I'm 23.. let's see..

1. Be more satisfied with my job
2. Land a killer job
3. Move out of my parents home and stay with Scott indefinitely and not just on the weekends!
4. Get out of debt for good
5. Increase my shoe collection
6. Did I forget to say Move out??
7. Look up schools for interior design and actually act on my dream

That looks pretty good. I wonder how many I will be able to accomplish.. Will just have to wait and see I guess :)

So what does my title mean?

Now that I have entered the real world and have acquired a "professional title" I begin to question what does my title mean? Right now, I'm technically an account coordinator for a marketing/communications agency. I bet your wondering why I wrote technically, right? Well literally an account coordinator to my understanding thus far does not do a much! Aside from running errands for people, grabbing your boss's lunch and basically doing all the shit work that nobody else wants to do is pretty much what my job entails.

Was this something that I wanted to do once I retained my degree? Absolutely not! I[m beginning to question once again, is this something that I want to do with my life? Do I want to be the personal bitch of the office? Everyone told me that going into an agency, I was going to literally breath and eat shit. You got to start somewhere I thought.. but did I really have to start here?

I have very high standards for myself and this job is not one that I ever thought I would be doing. I honestly didn't go to college to just do small mundane tasks? Or either sit here and blog while I am at work! I went to school so that I could contribute something to society. Be something great at work.. But time and time again, I see myself falling into this same rut. I ask for things to do, I even offer to help out with anything but nobody seems to want my help.

Am I threat to people? I'm often told that I can be a bit intimidating but seriously people, I'm just a recent college grad just trying to get some work accomplished. I want to go home thinking wow I got a lot accomplished today.. I dont want to go home and ask myself, what the hell did I do at work today besides sit around on facebook and chat to my fiance and friends??

This is not what I want to do. But I have no other choice.. I already quit one job because it wasnt for me, I'm not about to go and quit another one because I have a lack of work here. I want to be somebody.. I want to show the world what I am capable of doing.. I'm beinginning to question, if I will ever be allowed to do so!

I wonder if anyone else out there feels the same way? Have you ever had these same thoughts and feelings? Is there anyone else out there that literally does nothing all day and gets paid to just sit there??? How do you feel? Doesnt it just make you feel like a complete waste of space?

I'm beginning to have drepessed thoughts about graduating so early. I wanted to so bad get out into the work force so that I could start my career early but now I feel like its bitten me in the ass.. and hard!

Ugh... well those are just my thoughts, I suppose I should go around and ask everyone if there is anything I can do.. or maybe I could just remind them that I have a college degree..

Sadly you got to know someone

So I have been told time and time again, that in order to be successful in this economy, YOU NEED TO KNOW SOMEBODY! So who do you know? More importantly, how do we get to know these people that we so called "need" to know?

I pose these questions because I think that like many people as myself, we need to know the answers to these questions. Luckily, I think I know the answer to these questions!

When I first started my career as an intern for the two companies that I interned for, I always asked myself what is this going to do for me? Will it just help me land another job? Or would it just simply be a waste of my time? Actually the answer to those questions could be quite surprising. I found that in my first internship, it was a waste of time for me. Here I was as an HR Intern and my degree wasn't even specialized in that field at all. I came to work everyday doing HR functions, nothing to the extent of what I was learning at school. However, at the same time, I was meeting people that were going to help me succeed in every day life.

While I was there, I met a director who told me and encouraged me to continue reaching for my goals and do something that inspires me to be the best that I can be. I met a recruiter who spiced up my resume and gave me tips and tools to help me stand out amongst the rest. And then I met my boss who was such a great listener and counselor who also guided me into figuring out what it is that I want out of life.

So really, it wasn't a big waste of my time because I had met some people that I had I not met, wouldn't have been able to give me a push or give me experience to find out if maybe, "hey I like HR."

Going on to my next internship, in my field of studies. Communications! I was so happy and so thrilled that I finally was able to get into an internship that would enable me to put my skills and knowledge to work. At first it was a challenge because it was more journalism related and I wasn't a big huge fan of writing all day, everyday! But I took that with a grain of salt and looked at like someone here is going to help me land my next big gig!

And what do you know! If it wasn't for my boss, I never would have gotten my first offer outside of college in the advertising field. She knew of some people and recommended me over to their agency and here I am now.

In just three days I will be working in my first ever big girl job. I will finally be a career women and proving to society that like men, women can succeed too! It's a great feeling. Here I am only 22 years old and getting ready to do something with my life and begin to see the wonderful things that happen to you once you leave school.

I'm so grateful that I was able to continue my education outside of high school. I encourage everyone that I meet that in order to make something out of life you got to do something about your life in order to get there. Most of the time it means going to college and finding what your good at and getting that little piece of paper to prove that, yes you are in fact good at what your good at doing!

So my point, look at everyone you meet in life and say to yourself this person may no somebody who could get you your next big gig or they may do something in your life that will help you get there!

People are going back to school, so what am I doing?

I can't walk into a single store without seeing those huge back to school signs! Notbooks .10 each, paper, pens, folders are .15, those cute little planners that even still today, I can't help but pick one up and daze at it with excitement.. Atfer putting one day yesterday, it hit me! I'm no longer in school anymore. After 16 years of school supplies shopping and getting all excited for all the new and fabulous things that I would be utilizing in school, I no longer have to get this stuff anymore.

Recently, I graduated with my bachelor's degree in communications. The day of graduation, it didnt really effect me because technically, I still had to complete one class.. even ajob. fter completing that last class in June, I didnt really hit me that I was finally done. It kinda makes me sad to see and hear some of my friends talking about getting back into the groove of school. I always liked school. I loved learning new things and of course the social aspect of it. I met so many interesting people in college. Some of which are my very best friends, others are just contact
s now incase I need something but non the less these people were in my life and we were all trying to accomplish the same thing.

Since graduation, I contined with my internship in corporate communications at Burns & Wilcox and then went on to try something new and what I thought would fasinate the hell out of me.. Recruiting.. So I went and applied for a job in recruiting and after the first interview, I was offered a full time salaried position, needless to say, I was pretty geeked because to me it was my first real offical job. So I started that job in the beginning of August, everything was going great until they finally got us on the phone and getting hands on training. This job was a total disaster. It was nothing but sales and I felt like a telemarketer.

For the first time in my life, I quit a job without any short of backup plan. The only thing I had was the support of my fiance, scott and my parents. When I quit, I felt releaved and ready to start looking for what I really wanted.

Now, I'm sitting here. I've been unemployed now for not quite a week! Am I scarde that I'm not going to find something, sure! However, I'm not going to sit here and think im not going to find something because I know I will. I got great entry level experience to back me. I also have an open mind! I'm willing to relocate and im willing to go quite far. Scott has a good job right now and he has already told me that he is going to take care of me until I get back into a job that I like.

So now, I've hit the pavement and I've hit it quite hard. I have one advertising/marketing company that is really interested in me and I have another firm that I will be interviewing with next week. I would love to have some time off. Infact, a month would be pretty good. I can go to Florida with my mom, enjoy the rest of this beautiful summer and spend time with my family.

I want to take this time to really figure out who I am! Life after college can be pretty scary!