Anniversary Party

I really need to catch up with my posts.. this working full time after college is pretty much kicking me in the butt now :p but I'm slowly catching up and putting the more important things on here rather than just discussing life thoughts..

Ok so a couple weekends ago on October 18th, 2008 we celebrated my parents 25th wedding anniversary! I thought that it would be wonderful if I could get the whole family together and throw one big surprise party for them because lets face it, first I have some pretty awesome parents and two, finding couples who stay married that long are near to impossible these days because most often, people just give up on marriage and go find another partner to make them happy again.

I value marriage to the utmost and hope that my marriage with Scott will be just as ever longing as my parents and his too (they've been married a lot longer) so I know that it was very important to have a celebration and to bring the family together. My parents were quite impressed as was everyone else.. I spent my first barley hard earned pay checks on a fancy caterer which I think impressed a few of my family members but hey, this was for my parents not for everyone else. I wanted to show them how much I honor and respect their love for one another and well ok so I wanted to be a show off.. but come on I deserve to do that right? After all, there are certain people in my family who will remain anoyomous that have it out to some how get to me.. I don't know what it is.. wait actually I do.. they see that I'm becoming successful and a young women capable of doing things without the help of man and I think it freaks them out.

So the thing that I take away from throwing my first "adult" party is that no matter how much other people in your family talk about me, it doesnt matter because the people who are in your life that do nothing but respect who you are and give you love and neautring advice are the ones that mean the most to me. I'm so glad that I do have a strong support system between my parents and my moms side of the family. They were so proud of me and that's what I take out of this. When someone praises you for a job well done that is all a person needs.. there's no need to go on and embellish it, just simply say "job well done!"

My not so highly inticipated 23rd Birthday

So it's my 23rd birthday next Wednesday! As of right now, I don't have one thing planned for it. Well maybe a nice dinner out with Scott but that's pretty much it.. I know that I have to get up early, put a smile and go to work for the majority of the day. I haven't really been that anxious for my birthday this year only because turning 23 really doesn't have any significant meaning to it. It's just another year in this young 20 something world.

Truth be told, I hear that turning 23 is supposed to be one the biggest highlights of your entire life though. For some, I guess it's the best time they ever had being 23 that is. Is it because it's the first time in what 15 years that we no longer have school to worry about, unless your the highly chic and getting your masters degree? Or it could quite possibly be because most of us venture away from the oh so wonderful nest home of our parents place.

Whatever the case may be, I'm just going to toast my birthday(with a martini) with my wonderful fiance and reflect on what quite possibly could be the best year of my life.. right???

I guess I could also put together a list of things I would like to accomplish while I'm 23.. let's see..

1. Be more satisfied with my job
2. Land a killer job
3. Move out of my parents home and stay with Scott indefinitely and not just on the weekends!
4. Get out of debt for good
5. Increase my shoe collection
6. Did I forget to say Move out??
7. Look up schools for interior design and actually act on my dream

That looks pretty good. I wonder how many I will be able to accomplish.. Will just have to wait and see I guess :)

So what does my title mean?

Now that I have entered the real world and have acquired a "professional title" I begin to question what does my title mean? Right now, I'm technically an account coordinator for a marketing/communications agency. I bet your wondering why I wrote technically, right? Well literally an account coordinator to my understanding thus far does not do a much! Aside from running errands for people, grabbing your boss's lunch and basically doing all the shit work that nobody else wants to do is pretty much what my job entails.

Was this something that I wanted to do once I retained my degree? Absolutely not! I[m beginning to question once again, is this something that I want to do with my life? Do I want to be the personal bitch of the office? Everyone told me that going into an agency, I was going to literally breath and eat shit. You got to start somewhere I thought.. but did I really have to start here?

I have very high standards for myself and this job is not one that I ever thought I would be doing. I honestly didn't go to college to just do small mundane tasks? Or either sit here and blog while I am at work! I went to school so that I could contribute something to society. Be something great at work.. But time and time again, I see myself falling into this same rut. I ask for things to do, I even offer to help out with anything but nobody seems to want my help.

Am I threat to people? I'm often told that I can be a bit intimidating but seriously people, I'm just a recent college grad just trying to get some work accomplished. I want to go home thinking wow I got a lot accomplished today.. I dont want to go home and ask myself, what the hell did I do at work today besides sit around on facebook and chat to my fiance and friends??

This is not what I want to do. But I have no other choice.. I already quit one job because it wasnt for me, I'm not about to go and quit another one because I have a lack of work here. I want to be somebody.. I want to show the world what I am capable of doing.. I'm beinginning to question, if I will ever be allowed to do so!

I wonder if anyone else out there feels the same way? Have you ever had these same thoughts and feelings? Is there anyone else out there that literally does nothing all day and gets paid to just sit there??? How do you feel? Doesnt it just make you feel like a complete waste of space?

I'm beginning to have drepessed thoughts about graduating so early. I wanted to so bad get out into the work force so that I could start my career early but now I feel like its bitten me in the ass.. and hard!

Ugh... well those are just my thoughts, I suppose I should go around and ask everyone if there is anything I can do.. or maybe I could just remind them that I have a college degree..